"Do announcements?" YES!
"Emcee an event?" ABSOLUTELY!
"Preach a sermon?" COULDN'T BE HAPPIER!
There's so much more to life than holding a microphone, but I get that special tingle in my fingers and twinkle in my eye when I press the "on" button and take my first breath. At that moment, anything could happen. I could make people laugh or cry. God could use the words He gives me to touch someone's life profoundly. I could become an impromptu comedian when the schedule goes awry. There is no end to the magic that can happen when you're holding a microphone.
That's why I was so surprised last night. I was at my church's Believer's Gathering. When the pastor called for testimonies of what God is up to, I raised my hand. As an usher put the microphone in that raised hand, emotion swelled up inside of me. That usually confident first breath felt shaky. "I'm moving to Las Vegas!" I proclaimed. I began to tell of what God was doing, both in my life and in my future home, and I felt the tears well up inside.
Tears of nervousness and fear.
Tears of excitement. Of joy.
Tears of gratitude.
When I took the microphone last night, my confidence was no longer in ME. My confidence wasn't in whether I had a joke or anecdote to fill any awkward silences. It wasn't in if I'd done enough homework about the city of Corinth or whatever topic I was teaching on. My confidence was in an unseen and yet all-knowing Savior--the Lord of my life and of this move.
I've never doubted myself as much as I have over the last month in my entire life.
Can I DO this?
Will I have enough money?
What the heck am I THINKING?!
(BTW, the answers are No, No, and I have no idea!)
The thing is... as much as I doubt myself, I don't doubt GOD. HE has never proven Himself unfaithful. HE is the one who can orchestrate everything. He is the one whom I will follow. No matter where He leads. If it's to the desert, so be it.
So the next time I go to pick up the microphone, I get to remember this one astounding fact... My God has plans for me. And plans for you. And if that brings tears and shaky breath and sorrow and joy? Well, what a beautiful story that will be.